What do you yearn for?
What do you yearn for?
Over the course of the past few days I have been trying to think more in a writer way. I want to improve my writing but still write about interesting stuff. The question that has been on my mind for while is, what do people yearn for? What do people long for? Is it a community? A lover? Money? Success?
As I tried to come up with an answer I came to the realisation. I'm not asking what people yearn for, but what I yearn for. Then it got my mind spinning, what do I yearn for? Is it a community? A lover? Money? Success? Guess what... It's neither. My final answer was, I long to be noticed. My presence felt, and my absence felt even more.
This got me to understand so much of my actions. Whenever I notice people act different, the vibes are off, or I feel like I'm being less appreciated; I distance myself from them. Not in a way that I remove them from all social media, or ignore them IRL. No, in a way where I just don't reach out anymore. I just wish that they would notice, then text or call me, and go 'hey I noticed you...' and tell me what they noticed. Oh how I wish to be noticed, both my absence and presence.
Is it wrong of me? Probably yea. It's not a good mindset to have, to distance myself from the people I care about. I am going to work on it and try to stop it.