Fuck off
I hate changing who I am, what I wanna do, how I wanna be. All for what people think of me. Do I let other people’s opinions affect me? Of course I do. But gosh, not to this extent.
I can’t do what I want because of what other people may think. And it’s not because of me. It’s because of them. My parents, my family. Fucking people I don’t even know. “Why would you ever buy a guitar knowing what others will think” “what will others say when they know my daughter plays guitar” “how do I explain to others my daughter wants to play guitar”. Fuck off okay.
I’m not even allowed to decorate my room like I want. “When people come over I don’t want them to think my daughter is weird”. What the actual fuck.
If this exchange has taught me anything it’s really that I won’t ever be able to please everyone. Literally all I can think is fuck off.
I wanna dye my hair, change my clothing style, decorate my room, fucking play guitar. Anything I want to do is met with “no why would you ever want to do that” and “what would others say when they hear about this”.
I’m actually so over everything. How do I stop this all.